Most people speak when they’re on a video call. We were an exception. We stared at each other. We mimed. I made one silly face and as a symptom of him stifling his laughter, he farted. We waited, wide-eyed and quiet. Would his son wake up? I was video calling a father who was sleeping in his son’s bed…while his son was in it, sleeping. I was video calling a husband who was days away from finding out he would […]
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I stare at you because you amaze me. Most of the time there’s no expression on my face because I’m deep in wonder…wondering where you came from, wondering what’s going on in your mind, wondering why we do what we do to each other. Now that I know I stare, I’ve been shifting my glance and/or smiling if I do want to stare, as requested. Both shifting my glance and/or smiling breaks my train of thought. I’m not sure I […]
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She showed me the phone. “Tell her the Moon is saying goodnight for the last time. She’ll know what it means. ;)” Jason looked at me. He saw my face go white and put his hand on my thigh to console me. After we dropped her off we talked about finding dead bodies and witnessing car wrecks, fragility, and what driving around at 3am three nights a week because you can’t sleep does to your spirit. “I’m going to cry….is […]
Categories: secrets • Tags: goodnight, heartache, love, Moon, relationships
Jason’s gotten into the habit of reading through my text conversations with boys. He reads them likes school literature: critiquing them afterwards, probing for background, eager (and reluctant) to inquire about future character development. I hate it and I’ve gotten used to it. The invasion of privacy makes me feel like I’m cared for…in a rehab kind of way. Someone who knows me well and knows where I’ve been, sees me going down a path that could lead somewhere not so great, […]
Categories: secrets, Uncategorized • Tags: ghosts, love, relationships
Looking Back at Old Relationships What did you find unsatisfying about them at the time when you two were together? Dump of a living space, partner lacked motivation, empathy only given upon request, several day waiting period between text responses, drug abuse, smoker, white socks, health and fitness not important, no desire to connect with family, worked all the time, rarely wanted to go out and adventure, strangers were danger, lack of curiosity about my life What worked? No marriage, no […]
Categories: secrets • Tags: love, relationships, self help
That’s where we made out. And in the elevator. And in the hallways. He kissed me the way my first boyfriend kissed me and it’s been a looooooooong time since I’ve been kissed like that. Have you ever been in a make out situation where you’re walking but you don’t know where you’re going because the other person’s face is on yours the entire time? When you stand still you can’t see a damn thing but the sky because your […]
Categories: sugar • Tags: dating, mirage, relationships, sugar baby, sugar daddy, sugar relationship
A friend was talking about a book he had to read while going to couple’s therapy. I asked to see it…and I don’t remember anything about it except these questions I found somewhere in the middle and took a picture of. 1. What do I want more than anything else in a relationship? 2. If that desire were fulfilled, what would that give me? 3. If I had that state/feeling/situation in my life, what would I really have? 4. How […]
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I’m 31 years old and I have never been broken up with. One guy has turned me down for sex. Every day I prepare myself mentally to not be as lucky. My long-term partner and I regularly talk about our futures. The conversation goes something like, “I want to do this, I want to do that, you’re amazing, I love sharing my life with you, I’m so excited I get to witness your journey, I love watching us change, yadda, […]
Categories: Uncategorized • Tags: acceptance, break ups, communication, honesty, love, relationships, support
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